after playing for a bit and getting ready to go to school, i was just checking through my msn msgs for anything important before leaving and going to school.

Remember about a month or more ago, i mention this idiot who tried to cyber me often in lineage 2, and who sent me a picture of his greying penis? since then, more people have started talking to other people about his penis picts and also various things had happened ingame.

He was part of the alliance under his old clan. but midway through, apparently he tried to cyber with an clan member’s wife, or tried to send his penis pict, or both. of course the entire clan had a tiff and he left, probably assuming that like in the past, whenever he detag, they would want him back anyways, like he’s so important.

so he was almost booted from the clan, he left the clan instead, but appealed to join a rival clan so that “he could take it out on his old clan”. on his application page to that new clan, he says, “i have always respected you as enemies and now we should work as allies” or something along that line. read: butt licking.

up till then, i thought, oh, just another boy working through his raging pubescent hormones. no big deal. however, his actions proves more than that. he is so sick in the head he doesn’t see what he had done as a PROBLEM, that he must take revenge on his ex clan, instead of feeling exactly like the ass that he is.

anyways, by then lotsa people have heard from me as to the type of ass he is, as well as from various sources. because he has done this to so many people, the source isn’t necessarily me anymore. thing is, girls should not be exposed to such visual abuse just because they are a rare breed in gaming. thus i feel necessary to tell people about such a tool.

in case you also haven’t notice, he is also fair entertainment at how much of a fool he is.

after the last post on him, he gave me a curt “thanks, see you around” and proceeded to remove me from his friendlist ingame and blocked me. not a bad loss…

then he joined a friend’s alliance.

i told another friend who told another friend lalaalala…. and far as i know he probably got the boot from the clan. at any rate, he’s now abit of the server’s laughing stock.

when i opened my msn tab just now, this is what i saw from him…

[07:47] SiL3nT: thanks for ruining my fun in Lineage II
[07:47] SiL3nT: i really apreciate it

ahem. excuse me dear sir, when u first started talking to me, u never mentioned anything about confidentiality.

secondly, when u first breached the lines of normality, i could have reported you and got you banned for sexual harassment, but i didn’t. don’t tell me ncsoft don’t care, because it has been done before.

thirdly, if your idea of fun in a game is trying to fuck someone thru cables and networks, i would suggest u get your head check over. see, i can get porn, because u can see the action happening, it stimulates ur head a little.

i dont get cyber nor sending ur picture off to neverland. because right on this side of the monitor, i can be a dribbling 90 years old with a balding pubic region for all you know. the pictures that i sent you could be googled online anywhere, randomly. if you guys didn’t know by now, u can google stuff like dscn001 or something and then u had churn up someone’s private picture.

so to go thru that point more accurately, your idea of fun is to fuck someone u can’t see, who might be a 90 years old dribbling old man, with balding pubics trying to get a hardon with little boys, i.e YOU. good work matt.

on the other hand though, if that’s also your idea of fun, u are also the idiot that turns girls off playing because instead of just having casual fun, they have to learn how to handle dorks like you amidst all the learning of the game. guys with no life who tries to fuck their electrical appliances.

and you wonder why no girl wana get in your pants.

last but not least,

dear matt. if anyone’s at fault for feeling like an idiot in this game, it is but your own. i did not ask for the pict of ur greying penis that wasn’t washed since the beginning of time. i did not asked to be grossed out while having my dinner, neither did i seek to tell people intentionally at first what u did.

but i had to let it out of my mind because u gross me out that bad. whenever you couldn’t find anyone to cyber u had come to me, with ur *caresses* and *kisses* and *strokings* that irks me, because 1) i am busy healing in a party 2) i am not interested 3) ur disgusting.

if you quit the game, i would honestly not care, because you suck as a player, you suck as a person and u need help. let it be known ur also the FIRST person i can safely say that because you contributed absoutlutely nothing into the l2 world on kain, other than set female cautions up high. you have done absoutlutely nothing for anyone, other than giving people attention, pretending to be nice to them so that they could satisfy your needs when u need them.

this is not to say other people did not, but u extended that into the female boundaries of satisfying your penis, and that makes u the fucktard that you are.

for those reading this, i am sorry if i gross you out, but i feel that at some stage, i have to let this out. if anyone need to comment on how i shouldn’t bring this here, remember, my blog, my space, my entirety to do whatever i want on my blog, and this include making fun of anyone’s assets as i wish.

goodbye matt, remember to wash ur penis every now and then so that it stops greying.

my friend asked me this on her blog, so i decided maybe i should just reply here coz by the time i was ready to comment and tried to summarise it, it almost became essay length hehe….

Why romance stories are so boring to some of us?

Well, for one, more often than not it’s a happy ending. if it’s not happy ending, it’s a super tragic ending where the living half would have learnt something but is unable to move on for the dead one. amidst all that, the middle of that is often terribly happy happenings, at least in the part in how they found each other, lalala, and then tada!! they are soul mates! wah so heng…

most of such books are predictable (then again, i have read like a grand total of 12 romance books so far or something, and more coz the cover’s female has a huge bosom or they are pink in colour or something…) and while we had still cry at their predictability, we even desire to be like those main characters, they just don’t hold our attention.

because we already know they won’t happen and that imagining it happen just hurts our head and heart because you and i, one of us, at least 9 out of 10 have been hurt before in the name of love. these books hits us like a slap in our face that, hey, someone got it better out there, hah u suck!

yer it feels like that sometimes.

how does a person stay so cynical of love then?

coz, u know, despite ur subconscious knowing that books and tv arent real, that despite all that fiction, a part of u wish that u would have this gallant knight in shining armour come and sweep u off ur feet and then bring u in this circus of love and then u stay there happily ever after..

not likely to happen.

YES happily ever after happens, just not the way it happens in books and in movies, in series or in ur wildest dreams. every relationship have their own up and downs, ins and outs. no 2 person is going to be perfectly at ease with each other, not likely to argue, not likely to disappoint one another. hell, u even disappoint ur parents at some stage, who’s to say about someone who’s not related to u.

it’s like this family thing but with someone else who’s not in ur family, who’s not familiar with u.

while no one expects the other half to totally aquiesce to them, or to be utterly romantic, there are still expectations, there are still differences and sometimes, it eats away at u.

i remember an ex colleague, she had a not so perfect marriage to a guy coz she was pregnant. they weren’t exactly very madly in love before marriage, even she admitted that she only married coz of the kid, and to “try things out”, in her own words.

in the end, the smallest thing pisses her off, even before her kid was born. the way he snores at night, how he turns in bed till he was “upside-down” while he’s sleeping, how he can’t sleep with music on while she needs to have some music on.

it’s when the breakdowns occur, the break ups that happen, the tears that u shed for the men that walked out of ur life, for the un-reciprocrated love that u spent sleepless nights on, that u turn a cynic. rl never seems to run like the books u read, the movies u cry over, the lyrics u hear.

but rl, is also more than a day, more than a few hours, more than cameras, lights, ink and paper. it takes 2 hands to clap, 2 lives to bend so that they may compromise, that’s what, in my opinion, love is.

of course don’t be an idiot and compromise and change urself so utterly that u aren’t yourself anymore. i mean, for fucks sake, he loves u then he gotta love all of u, isn’t that what he fell in love with in the first place? if it isn’t then he isn’t worth a single bit of ur time just move on.

i know, i can be wrong. i am speaking from my own personal point of view, with my not so vast experience with guys. but i do know at least my mum, my friends all had their various expectations of what kind of guys they want. and everyone of them had their expectations fell short.

one had a boyfriend who had do anything for her, but has a temper the temperature of a volcano, with equal efficiency at erupting.

another married a man thinking she can be a rich bum, but never got round to being a rich bum…

another had a boyfriend who would even wipe her tears away that she may never be hurt again by anyone… to be the same person who abuses her.

and then the guys have their own bad share of girls too. one had a girl who went cheated on him.

another guy lost his gf to an online dude coz he wasn’t as romantic as him, or as hard working as that guy to travel the distance to meet her (then again, singapore is only about 33km by 40 km or something like that, how far the hell u want him to travel anyways bitch?)

so tell me, is it wrong to be a cynic?

then again.. is it wrong to be a hopeful person?

both answers are.. not really.

then u hear songs like beautiful soul, i need you and i can’t live a day without you blah blah blah…

you watch shows where the guys had die so that their girls can live… and then u wonder where’s prince kermit….

he does exist.. somewhere out there. sorry to say, some of them are damn hum ji. if not most of them. they might never die for u, they might never give up their 837108313212 paying jobs so that they can move away with you to never never land.

BUT! some of them have balls!!!! remember Andrea D’Cruz and Pierre Png?!?!

ya! he donated his liver to her when her diet pills caused her to have a liver malfunction or something… so there’s hope!! ^.^ it was a dire situation admittedly, not like its a show or something, but, everyone of us out there wanted to have a special someone who would do something for us like that. and few people, very handful few would actually do such a thing, despite whether they say they would or not.

i think their story actually made everyone’s day and sigh hard and wish their boyfriends/girlfriends would do the same for them too. unlike shows, stories and other fictictious stuff, their’s real.

they are real!

therefore…

have hope!! cynical is ok!! but don’t let it bog u down!!!

blah.

for the last one week now, my strange dad has been calling me leaving me more confused than my usual essays do.

he had call and go “harllo?”

“hi dad… wassup?”

“it’s night now right?”

“er ya..??”

“ok bye!!”

ermmmm… ok.

then he had call again… and ask “hey… you still playing games?”

“ya, still l2.. why?”

“oh nothing.. BYES!!! ”

….

YESTERDAY!!! amidst my readings and so on, he called “eh fatso, how are assignments going?”

“still doing some, exams coming up. why leh?”

“o nothing…!!!”

*click*

omg. SOMEONE STOP MY DAD!!!!!!!!!

then this morning …

“hey fatso.. i think ur mum threw away ur soft toys… how?”

“… why???”

“iono… it’s not there anymore”

“wtf!!! did she move it?”

“she won’t say anything but ur sis said she threw them away..”

“she crazy or what?”

“i was kidding la…”

………………………………………

my dad.. is damn free.