it’s nice to be back, despite such a huge scare over the holidays. It feels kinda surreal at the moment, since i was somewhat prepared not to be able to come back.

This semester, i am doing japanese too. the 2 days worth of classes lost was pretty huge. By the time i started class on wednesday, the class had pretty much finished with the hiragana, and everyone recognises almost all the characters. half of the people in the room, at least, did japanese before in high school or in one way or another.

in short, i am pretty much the most useless

I dropped by and visited my old housemates at some stage, since some nice generous and gentle soul bought me my japanese textbooks and sent it there (not his fault). *hugs* it kind of soften up everything for me though, and sort things out between us. i think when Skye tried to mediate things between us, she fucked things up real bad. our differences were kinda sorted out, and we caught up with one another like friends - which is good. and then they visited me at work, with the new housemate that took over my place.

Work… i am pretty disappointed. the 2 bitches were re-hired despite whatever they promised, said and supposedly concurred on. and all because, “they bring in an extra 1000 in add-ons a week, that’s 4 times more than what they earn. that’s good.”

Sans the jealousy part, let me just say this: half the time i don’t know if the customers really wanted the add-ons. The way they phrased their sales pitch, sometimes, sounds more like if the customers wanted them on or off their meals - as in a non-add-on. Customers sometimes get really annoyed with the fact that they can’t understand each them and vice versa.

The good thing is, they promise me i would only get to see them just once a week, at the very most (different shifts). but i will see. their promises sounds like empty barrels to me now.

And that’s really it! i am glad to be bad, but until today, i haven’t got a decent sleep yet :p anyways, i am off, need to see school about something. it’s been great to be back. thanks for all your well-wishes, your love and care about everything guys.

i am at the airport, after experiencing the worst sent off ever courtesy of my family. nevermind that i sacrificed sleep last night so that i won’t feel the muscles cramping in the tight arse economy class seats, or that i am somewhat nervous that i might have too overweight a luggage or might have forgotten something important.

no, my grudge is against my very own mother.

 now, i know i have not been back in a couple of years of more. i should be at least nicer to her. i have been. and then i have been trying. From the day i have flown back, till even just now when i was trying to stay awake and have my breakfast, she was either going on about how great our relatives’ kids were, or she had be going on about how unfilial i am, OR reminding me i have to send back money to her.

i am LEAVING MUM. i might NOT EVER come back. you might NEVER see me again. and omg, the plane might CRASH. and instead of being at least NICE and civilised to me, she was berating me about a joke my DAD started.

There’s some kind of policy in NSW where if you help to set up a plot of land, it’s pretty much yours (very simplified explanation. my dad was joking with one of my aunts about this yesterday during a chinese new year visitation, and i tried to explain the particulars of this “land owning” in Australia to my aunt. and all she was concerned about is how i should NOT tell people how i am spending my money.

hello? when was i going to buy a piece of land anyways? money drops from the sky?

Then she goes on to say i am a horrible daughter, stupid sister, total lack of intellect and exhibit NO behavioural aura of a uni student whatsoever.

Ok, since when does uni students produce some kind of different “aura”? or perhaps they are snobs, is that what she was saying?

Then she goes on to say none of the friends i have ever got to know have any class, status or money, that i am such a useless human being because of that, that i should be like her, make more RICH FRIENDS (oh shit, the poor aren’t human, maybe i should not acknowledge her coz she’s poor!) and zomg…. that chinese people are ashamed of me, which is why i don’t have chinese friends because i have stooped so low in class.

now excuse me a little. i think i have plenty of chinese friends. I do have rich friends, but considering the weirdo she is, i never like to divulge things about them to her. She always ends up asking how much they earn, the price of their homes, how many maids and cars they own. like wtf, i don’t see how any of that is her business.

but she got into the gist of it and said, “i hate all MONKEYS (caucasians). they are the worst animals on earth (and you are any better?) and you just simply have to be friends with them because no chinese wants to be near you!.”

tough luck woman, this place was built with HUMANS in mind, not useless racist crap like you

I called Yz and then i walked out on my family after saying byes to just my dad (sis was being crappy too). i felt a twinge of guilt. just prior to that, dad was trying to make me get along with my mum even if it’s just an hour before i have to go. but i guess that’s not meant to be.

she’s just INCORRIGIBLE!

 

P.S i won’t have net for a while i believe, at least not till i have found a new place to move into and then set up net there. But at least, TRUST ME, i will have better net, and i will be more available!

i love you all!!!

Now that i have collected my passport, and everything is pretty much on the go from hereon, there’s many things for me to do.

 1) the visa given to me is not entirely the right subclass, considering that i asked for an extension not a new visa. that can be easily rectified, i believed, when i get back.

2) i still got my place at work, i just have to go there to hand in my new school’s time table since Don gorgeously decided i would most definitely not be able to go back and threw away the timetable i gave him.

3) pay school fees, get textbooks (sans this and that, they cost about 300 bux o.o)

4) sign up for internet back here so i can actually communicate with my parents at a cheaper rate -.-;;

5) man handle my mum - not. oh wells. i truly am disgusted by her this time around. not a day nor a moment goes by without her constantly reminding me that all my money belongs to her. she has already started planning how to spend my future pay - the pay i get once i graduate.

6) get rid of the reminder of my debts that i can afford to get rid of.

7) figure out if my dad’s a dependent of mine or not. this gets tricky, but i was hoping perhaps to figure a way to get him to stay with me for the reminder of the time i am in Australia - or more since i hope to get a citizenship eventually. my dad’s as bugged out by my mum as i am, and he seems to be into depressive non-eating habits now. it’s always heaps easier for me to watch over him if he’s nearer. if not, perhaps i can get him to come visit me every few months, just a small getaway from my mum nonetheless.

there are new people at work, but some has been fired or left as well. from the sounds of it, on the floor i only have mel and niccie left, whom seems to have all gone babe-in-the-woods after i left. Ching and Vye, the 2 bitches, apparently went in to work the other day, perhaps to ask for their jobs back. since i have heard nothing from Don nor Boss, i am assuming they didn’t get it back though *heaves a reliefed sigh*

on the other hand, because Mel and Niccie sounds like they are being such huge lazy bitches now, Don seems set on firing them once the new ones are trained up and i am back or something. While i can treat this as a 3 week holiday now… it sounds like i have lotsa work too going back.

 

ok that pretty sums up all i have to look at when i get back for now, that’s not numerical >.< you gotta love number crunchings…..