a glimmer of… amusement

anivyl Posted in Blog, Rant，
30 September 2005
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i am not sure if i have mentioned this before, but the student association was trying to fight my case out with the vice chancellor, hopefully to let me back in next semester.

and today was meant to be the day of reckoning.

it’s not like now anything matters much anymore, i have more or less given up hope. but if i get back to uni today, it would be awesome in terms of finances. that’s really all there is to this entire matter now. day of reckoning? heh. i don’t know if i should care at this point at all or not.

like i said, i do feel hurt about how uni entirely treated me.

especially with regards to my email, and how they didn’t seem to care that we didn’t receive their promise emails on time.

my student email account was well and truly closed a month ago. i couldn’t log in, and neither did i try after the 30th of august, altho the guy on the phone said 20th.

it is now the 30th of september.

i don’t know why i did what i did. perhaps i was sub consciously thinking that if they had accept me back… it would be turned back on.

it was turned back on since 17th of september. O.o

that was the friday of the week i appealed through SA.

O.O

*prays harder* Dear Lord, i do need the money. and then, i need to vote for sheetle. Then, i need to run for SA next year. AND THEN, i just want to be in school, to fulfill what i came here for.

:)

thanks God.

Amen

officially aging

anivyl Posted in Blog, Friends, Rant，
30 September 2005
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officially aging huh, gin?

happy birthday, my dear friend. while i am too broke to give u anything for the last 3 years (and to most of my friends too >.< ) i still remember you guys, even though i am shite at remembering birthdays. when i start earning money properly, i am just going to buy things at the beginning of the year and have some courier service remember the dates for me. simply coz i DO care, i am just shite at remembering birthdays.

:)

i know she called me the night of her birthday, but i was just so out of it from working and so on, i was still in a state of comatose. and was going to do so till the next working day.

birthdays can be awesome, celebrations, gifts, and what have you. birthdays though, are really reminders that the world goes on, with or without you. and the time one wastes, is time that you get older doing nothing. depressing eh? yer…

i was watching some anime to pass away my off day. i don’t know why, i just suddenly wish i was back in secondary school, still young and silly, rash and emo all over. i just wanted to live it differently, and then see how life would have turn out.

would it make me any different as a person? maybe…

it still feel weird at times, like i was not in any form of transition, and suddenly i am on the brink of full time work, having to deal with the real world without any “results” in meritocratic form. no certificates indicating that you have done well in this section of life. no 9/10 for any performance that i would be doing.

on the one hand, it is scary. on the other hand, it seems like a whole new adventure. i only had a year’s worth of taste of it, and i must admit, i didn’t quite like it. now, if i do have some form of certification, would that actually be any better? looking at different blogs though, it seems like no matter how much of a certification, you would still have to face with jerks and retards in the office.

and unlike school, you can’t just wish for a different class from them next year.

officially aging.

goddamn. i hate feeling old