and i ran out to dance in the rain with a half dead camera in hand…

and now i shiver in cold…

someone sent me a message via friendster just. it wasn’t someone i know, but because i didn’t officially state that i got kicked from school there (too big a thing to mention) or that i am no longer a student either ways, it was a strange request from a distant stranger, with regards to exam papers.

apparently they need student i.d to access the past year papers. perhaps when i last access them, i was on campus, thus i was never required to input my uni id for it. so when i faced that login page, not only was i a little daunted, i was… a little upset.

everywhere i go, there are constant reminders that i no longer belong to anu, and i am no longer studying and i was a total idiot to let things get to me so hard. i can’t believe i am no longer doing something i actually do like, and i am here feeling a little “homeless” and dejected. so this little adventure, to say the least, made me a little depressed again at the reminder that hey, i am a moron.

but i gave it a shot anyways. technically speaking, from what i understood, i should have access to career center for at least 2 years more, but even that was lost to me, while linxy still could get on to it.

voila…

i got showed to sssooo many exam papers, i could hardly breathe.

so in my happiness, i just downloaded every single shit of an exam paper that i found interesting.

MORE USELESS MUGGING!!!

hehehe

to be honest, i have NO idea how to “broil” something or “roast” something. i have a distinct image of dumping the entire meat into the pot or hanging a piece of raw meat over some campfire respectively.

so i invent new ways to cook stuff! not exactly new ways, they are meant more for birthday bbq’s anyways.

today’s trial and error was some thai sour and spicy prawns. it turned out better than i expected, albeit i didn’t like the coriander leaves at all, so i am never going to use it ever again. i was so happy with how “extra spicy” it was, now that i know the trick to it all…

just do add more chilli and other ingredients as if you are cooking a huge pot

but i was lazy… i don’t exactly like to cook rice very much, what with the hassle of cleaning up thereafter. i know it’s just really cleaning up and then washing, but.. i am a bum. so i made the mistake of… pairing this up with potato pommes.

when i saw what happened, i was like.. errr… ok. time to make rice. so eventually when i was done, the prawns were just slightly cold, but not totally off. they went off ssooo good…

i miss home. all that chilli prawn and honey prawns. ooo, and the curry prawns, and the assam prawns.

and curry chicken omg omg omg..

i must try to make some tomorrow.

curry chicken attempt #4!!! (i know i know.. i will get it right some day. shut it.)

i really am getting into this cooking thing. it still takes a little getting used to, what with me not having cooked for like the past 3-5 years. at the beginning, there were the eggs that i got right. then there were the occassional raw chicken amidst the curry (the failed attempts) or the overcooked chicken amidst the honey soy sauce.. maybe, just maybe, i am slowly hitting the marriageable level of cooking.

now, to learn how to CLEAN as REGULARLY as i should. i feel like a bum.

meanwhile, here’s one of the puppies i saw at the pet shop while grocery shopping/job hunting/reading on the roadside..

oh reading.

i have decided to ignore the fact that i am no longer in school, that i have no clue what books i will be needing come october, and just read the texts that i did buy for this sem. perhaps it was a waste, after all, i am never going to need them again unless i get back to these same courses with the same lecturers with the same needs. i believe our undergraduate course cycle is 4 years.

the thing is, i can’t stand not reading something. i am more or less done with Eldest (i will probably make up a review of it at some stage). i am still half way through the Quarterly Essay, which has too much statistics in it than i care to read (Worried Well for the quarter that i am reading). i am done with the short essays part of the Monthly Magazine. I have read through time 3 times for this week (on Katrina’s devastation).

i am somewhat mentally exhausted through all these semi heavy readings, but i feel… twitchy. i need to read more… so i started drawing out all the other texts that i didn’t like last night. i am reading back on my first year’s books. the ones that i actually did attend classes and pass for. feels weird to re-read them, yet at some level, they seem all new all over again.

something different.

so amidst learning to cook properly, i am going to read properly.

here’s to more free reading material!! (i know it’s a dream)