my new summoner on the test server… she’s 61 now, this is the 3rd cat and the 2 cubics. the purple one paralyses mobs, the greenish one.. uhm well its supposed to imitate my attacks but does nothing but wind strikes, which are pretty strong imo. it’s just, if i am sleeping mobs, it wakes them, so annoying -.-”

i simply have to announce this no matter how gh3y it’s going to make me sound or retarded it may seem.

a few weeks ago i was meant to present something else and couldn’t due to some error and etc, and had to email some lecturer and so on. for some odd reason nobody replied my email from my uni email account =/ which made me real sad, and obviously upset coz it’s worth some %%%%%%.

just before i turned off my monitor though, i felt i had to check some email. voila, email from lecturer. and he was all nice and not so sarcastic and etc this time too. but, it’s in my gmail!!! how the hell!!!!!

so anyways.. yay!!! he replied but not about my presentation though. so now i am waiting for another reply!!!

^.^ happiness…

sigh… take home exam is today. i dont feel like looking at it.

anyone wana volunteer doing it for me? it’s not very hard, just some taxation legal stuff ^.^ i am sure you will enjoy doing it!! oh yes, and there are some other exams as well!!

lol, i feel weird. exams all around me, i am playing games hardcore still, reading during bath breaks and getting real stressed that i run back to playing games anyways. oh, don’t worry i actually know my work. it’s just stress builds up due to exams and assignments due anyways. just part and parcel of it.

i remember my first 4 assignments which were due conseceutively. by the second paper i was writing, i got so upset with it, slammed my laptop shut, started crying and set as far away from my laptop as was possible in my tiny dorm room.

call it a mental breakdown or whatever you want. i didn’t want to disappoint anyone’s hope in me, least of which my own expectations of myself. but i guess having too high an expectation can lead to fear of making urself look retarded to urself. i don’t want to make myself upset like that again, because i want to enjoy life as it is. i loved studying and making myself scared of it sounds terrible.

it sounded like i was going insane.

i guess that’s when i got addicted to games too. on the one hand i can play and study at the same time, on the other i can “relax” too. they have their own stresses, as i found out later. but in the mean time, i can “be with” my friends who arent here with me, and i miss them horribly (although those that i love the most dont happen to play games o.o). these “games” brings some form of normality in a new place that i just came to.

admittedly i felt very at home here, but places does not equate people, and i do long faces of familiarity at times.

but wouldn’t you?

anyways i am napping for a while, before i go off and pick up my take home.

night night people ^.^