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Have a little Faith

Have a little Faith

I cried today at the mall.

It wasn’t this overwhelming gushing thing I used to do, but it was a quiet affair where I was terribly ashamed and worried if people would find me that way. You see, I wasn’t depressed, or upset. I was going through a character loss from a book. However, this character was very real – It was the Reb (Rabbi Albert Lewis) whom I have just “met” via Have a little faith by Mitch Albom.

Mr Albom’s book wrote about his Rabbi, who was dying from cancer but lived every moment so… joyously and kindly, always caring about others and very little about himself. When asked if there was anything he was worried about his death, it was his “second” death that he was worried about – the one where people, that you once loved or was connected to in one way or another, fades away from memory.

This book serves to keep him alive in people’s memories, in a way bigger than the Rabbi probably ever imagined.

And it all started because the Reb asked Mr Albom if he could speak his eulogy for him when the time comes. Thusly, in the last 2-3 chapters of this extended eulogy, I cried quite extensively in the mall, hunched over my Kindle.

 

Thanks to the Reb and Mr Albom, it has both reminded me of the questions and intentions of my life. I will start by pointing out a very incongruous and curious situation:

 

All over the world, we have got conservations set up to preserve large pieces of lands, animals; we have got programs set up against animal abuse, global warming and what have you. I vaguely remember people even pointing out to me how people suck – because we, the people, hurt animals when we are animals ourselves. Closer to home, I have had various run-ins because I have 2 tails hanging off a fully leather bag.

I love animals. I used to volunteer in RSPCA when I was young, advocate for many things regarding conservation of animals and so on. I think, WWF was like my dream job because I thought all I ever have to do was to sit and give all my love to animals.

One day, my vegetarian friend asked me, if I love animals so much, why am I still an omnivore? My response to that, much to her disappointment and disapproval, was, “they were killed, they died, because people believed that we need them for our health. In respect to their lives, I won’t stop eating meat – but I will definitely ensure no meat is wasted when it’s on my plate.” Completely inconsistent to her, perhaps, it made sense to me. She wanted me to stop eating meat so that, if one by one, the world turned vegetarian, no one would kill animals senselessly anymore.

We each have our own opinions, and really, no one is right or wrong.

Then, all over the world, we have people being starved, abused, gunned, tortured, killed, murdered and more. Some in the name of religion, some in the name of power, others from the sheer inability to help themselves and furthermore from pure silliness.

People suck – even more so against each other.

Some statistics was rattled off to me one day. 10% of the world are millionaires, multi millionaires. They also hold 70% of the world’s money or something to those numbers. Yet, we have people starving to death, homeless people, people burglarising for money, necessities – basics. When the economy collapsed in America, the people who can’t afford their mortgages moved out, and the homeless moved in in their bid to procure a home via an obscure law.

In my dingy university hall, I watched countless videos as part of my course about how the Nazis tortured and killed Jews, the Darfur atrocities, the various tortures and atrocities America committed while under the banner of retaliation, the slides of people treating others like dogs in the name of Allah, God, Yahweh, and whatever else you can possibly find fo religion. Incredibly, the same people who professed to stand for the people, to fight for the people (think communism), are also the same ones who ended up being so disconnected from the people (North Korea, I am looking at you) that they do not realised they have failed their people.

In other words, while people worried about preserving the world’s flora and fauna, we have also forgotten our needy, have turned abusive towards our own and/or have completely desensitise ourselves to other human beings.

 

Oh, there are other organisations out there for humans by humans. Cancer Council, Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, Mediciens sans Frontieres…. However, unless there is a doll-eyed child staring at people from the poster, you find less people fawning over those organisations as compared to the flora and fauna types. Unless people find themselves relevant to a cause, there are few who seemed to genuinely care.

The Reb is right: People don’t want to stop wars or the pain, even if they seemed completely dedicated to the problems that is not between humans.

 

The question here is, really, why. We can’t even treat each other right, we can’t even help each other right. We walk past that homeless drug addict round that corner and despise him, make judgements and walk away. Some of us have it luckier than others, we aren’t put into situations where we get tempted in those ways.

So… if we can’t even be good to each other, how can we be good to the other things around us?

 

Somewhere, there’s a panda laughing at us.

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magnitude of everything

magnitude of everything

What with the whole earthquake disaster, all the floods, bushfires and what have you, I am completely floored and exhausted, but mostly floored. You would think, with the amount of natural disasters happening over the last 4 months or so, the world is definitely coming to an end. I wouldn’t even be surprised, honestly.

My heart goes out to countries affected by the earthquakes (keyboard wouldn’t let me type some letters, so this statement would have to suffice).

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I have been doing my assignments like a turtle reversing back into the sea. It’s not only slow, some times I think I miss out on so much. To simply say that I am doing my head in hardly covers it. I am confused by what the teachers really want from us in a couple of the assignments, particularly because some of the instruction is not very clear. For example, it states that certain forms needs to be filled up in part one to demonstrate that we understand what forms needs to be filled up – but in other parts of the question, it states we need to just identify those forms?

*shrugs*

would it not be better if I just finish it then? instead of fucking part one part 2 part 3 shit.

it just irks me. haih.

the other thing is, reading more and more into colorectal cancer. you start realising how short life is… not that it’s not obvious before of course. but you know, just… the possibilities of a lot of things. the pain, the suffering.

and the complete fascination of how this disease moves and grows. completely sick, mind you, but the disease also fascinates me. looking at the CT scans of the sigmoid colon, how faecal impaction makes it all light up like a christmas tree…. how a tumour looks on the CT scan.

it’s sick, scary, but completely fascinating.

but now I don’t know how to complete my assignment. like… how the fuck do you describe how devastating this disease really is? words fail me.

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My take on refugees and immigration

My take on refugees and immigration

As luck would have it, everywhere I turned today, I see the issue of Time with the Asylum Seeker’s front page, as well as other news with regards to a new boatload of refugees that has just been intercepted and are waiting on Christmas Island.

Well, first off, let me explain my view of refugees as a whole. I do agree they need to be treated humanely. I do agree that sometimes, this does not include an option of going back to their homelands. I am completely sympathetic and understand their situations, if genuine, whether it is violence related or economically related, that their lives are threatened if they had stayed home.

The issues that I am severely concerned about is that:

1) their concerns might not be as severe as they are implying.
2) they are just not entirely genuine, which implies a direct security to the nation, amongst other things.
3) it is hard to find out if anything about them is genuine.
4) the possibilities of being unable to sustain the population.
5) employment rates – be it for them or for the recipient nation’s citizens.
6) the unfair tilt for the other migrants who are legally trying to get into the country.

To start with, I am just going to go down the list I have written up. People are worrying about the boatloads of refugee seekers for many reasons, to the point where it is threatening political careers, if the media is to be believed.

Asylum seekers/refugees claim they need asylum for various reasons ranging from a violent homeland, threats of death, economical breakdown, deathly discrimination – what gives. Alot of them arrives with nary a skill to call their own as they have spent the majority of their lives completely unable to gain any skills beyond living from hand to mouth and running and hiding for their lives, if they are to be believed. Although, most countries that refugees comes from are also well known for having the lack of opportunities to gain any form of skills – which is fair enough and understandable.

yet, as I have heard, seen, read from various sources, some of the claims are barely close to the truth. some of the refugees’ issues aren’t even big enough to leave the continent they stay on, such as the one of the German family seeking refugee status in Canada/America (Can’t remember where they ended up). and then, you get completely contradicting experiences from 2 different citizens of the same country and similar “villages”. I know 2 people from a particular country, one’s trained as nurse within that country (whose qualifications are not recognised here, but that’s beside the point) and has worked as a nurse, while the other claimed that no such opportunities exists in that country.

this then leads into point 2). If the situation that they are claiming are not as severe as they claim, there can only be a few reasons why they are here. Some of the countries, particularly the ones that have currently have their refugee intake frozen in Australia at the moment, possess personalities that could prove to be a security threat to Australia. E.g Muslim extremists from everywhere (since, you know, Muslim isn’t just a faith present in Afghanistan), people of criminal records that are not easily accessible to Australia (because the country they are from aren’t organised enough to be well policed), crazed warlords trying to take over the world.

That is just the extreme end of the stick.

The not so extreme end of the stick is also the darndest. A few months ago, I was speaking to a girl on the bus. I know this girl fairly well enough to say that she was a refugee, was working at that point in time at a minimum wages job, and was also a single mum-to-be. Her mum worked hard for her to get away from her homeland, an act to give her a brighter future that her parents never had. When she got here, she discovered a whole world of opportunities that starts with the door called Humanitarian Visa, and the doormat known as Centerlink.

In her very own words, she laughed and said to me, “if you’re female, under 25 and about to become a mother, the Government will take care of you like their own kid.” While I have yet to find the links to the “benefits” she claims (because I can’t seem to work my way around government websites very well, they are terrible, nor have I looked very hard), here’s a condense version of what she said to me:

- if you proved you have been looking for a job, they will give you $$
- even if you do have a job, if it pays you minimum wages, they will pay you some $$ too.
- as a female, especially as an expectant female, she was offered a number of government rental housing in prime areas for “safety” reasons. even though, really, they are just a couple of blocks away, they offered her another home within a matter of 3 months because “it’s in a safer spot”. all these, of course, at discounted rates.
- if you take on accredited courses to “improve” yourself (such as english language) or to gain skills, you get paid while you study, sometimes to the tune of $900 a fortnight. This is almost that of minimum wages sans taxes. whether or not you actually pass or attend the courses much is not an issue.

and what this says to me is that… they are just opportunists. This money they are getting is our taxes. our hard earned taxes.

While she’s busy manipulating the system, and she’s not the only one since she wasn’t the only one I have spoken to, I have been busy too. I have worked my ass off, and then some with extra shifts so I could buy what I need and what I want. I used to spent months looking for lodging, sometimes in the dodgiest of places with the worst landlords. I pay nearly 3 times what she pays to stay in the same area. My dad blew his retrenchment package on my Uni studies while I am about to pay for my upcoming ENs course.

No, I am not angry, I am just terribly scandalized. Where do people get off on this? How is it right that thousands of hardworking Australians pay taxes so someone can leech off them without being discovered?

Of course, this then leads to point 3) and 4). resources are severely limited, be it food, money, land, jobs and more. The government can hardly afford to do the minute sleuthing to find out if these people are indeed doing what they are meant to be doing, that they are indeed who they say they are. After all, they are already paying them money for various other things already.

at the same times, these people that eventually gets through the detention centres will also eventually occupy space. They will be expected to job hunt in the same jobs that everyone else is hunting too. Australia, as a continent, is technically big enough to sustain more people than is currently living on it. This is just space wise, however, and not resource wise.

Does Australia have enough water resources? Do we have enough land for housing? Would housing then remain cheap enough for everyone, or would it grow out of reach for our future generations? Are we looking at a future of rental properties for Australians? Would there be enough jobs for everyone?

and, yet another big question, with such a huge influx of migrants, both from paid migration and from humanitarian visas, what would happen to the Australian culture? As it is, for example, the Canberra I knew is changing. It is different now from the sleepy town of merely 7 years ago. so, would Australia still be Australia?

then, since we are on the topic of paid migration, what about the migrants who have the choice to stay or go in their countries? who are skilled and wants to bring their skills here? what about people’s spouses/partners who are somewhat skilled, willing to assimilate and contribute to their new home society…. what do the get? How come we are marginalised and have to be trimmed down while boatloads of refugees are increasing?

doesn’t that just encourage us to buy a raft and wade back in that way instead?

There are quite possibly a few ideas in solutions that are… risky to explore and quite possibly resource hungry in terms of land and $$. but then again, any policy is often resource hungry, particularly in the finance department. here’s a few ideas into solving the problems:

- I think Spain or Italy tried this – turn back the boats. This probably sound very inhumane to the Greens and a whole bunch of other humane societies. Unfortunately, if they haven’t notice this by now, they must be very blind. In accepting boatloads of people, Australia is sending a big signal out to others waiting back home that they won’t mind taking them in. Unfortunately, Australia isn’t handling refugees very well. I don’t think many countries do at this point in time. The economic downturn, while not affecting Australia that much, has brought other problems in.

turning back the boats for now would slow down the problem while they figure out how to resettle people and work through other related problems (such as finding a better, more fool-proof method of means testing them post-giving them their PRs).

and really, let’s admit it now, if Australia turns boats away, they are not likely to go straight back home if all is bad – there are many countries between here and their home countries.

- create new towns. I mean, haven’t they been encouraging people to build more areas outside of Sydney? Create new towns, put some resources in there. Then carefully manipulate the type of people in there. In Singapore, to maintain order, fairness and etc, housing blocks are sold in racial ratios. This means that, according to the national statistics, since 70% of the population is chinese, 20% are malays, etc, the housing blocks are sold in those ratios as well to ensure that no one area is over populated with a single race. This is of course, ages ago, I don’t know if it’s still the same. Besides, I am sure my figures are just a little off.

What I am suggesting is slightly different. to help assimilate refugees into the local culture, it would be perhaps more proactive to have “manipulated” populations such that 70% of the new towns’ population are born Australians or have been Australians for a long time (pick a time frame, since there are so many migrant Australisn now).

- have probation periods for people granted the visa. If they willingly upgrade themselves and assimilate themselves, they stay and get resettled somewhere else to evenly distribute skills.

- If the country they come from are over with their troubles… It might be easier to ship those who are still in detention centres back home, along with some who have been locally “trained”. This is to help rebuild the country so there would be less failed states therefore leading to less refugees (very thereotically speaking).

none of the above ideas are foolproof, hateproof and even seem humane to many. I don’t aim to please. However, I would think the interests of born-bred Australians are more important than those who are coming to Australia, whom have yet to prove themselves or contribute to the society.

and let’s just admit it now, temporary detention centres aren’t going to be the solution in the long run. Neither is using Indonesia as a backyard going to help relations.

okay, brain has stop whirling. I will stop here for now.

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