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Questioning the what if’s

Questioning the what if’s

Ok, mind’s clearer now. Here’s a few things I need to say though:

This blog links right straight into my facebook. I think most people who are on my facebook knows that bit. What I don’t think many realises is I am quite easy with the “confirm friends” button. If I think I know you, if I think there’s a chance you are not an immature and decidedly stupid twat, you are normally added. That is usually everyone. Every once in a while, I might be wrong, but so far, I think with 3 years? maybe more? on facebook, I have had to only delete 4 people.

I mean, it’s just bloody facebook. It’s not very private, and I am not a very private person save for a few precious things – and they won’t be mentioned much on the internet for that reason. However, facebook also means I don’t have to tolerate people that I don’t want to. why put myself in that situation when there’s plenty of assholes I HAVE to face with out there?

Again, though, not many people realises that we do have CHOICES that, again, we can choose to swing it or not. This is not a warning though, this is the reality. When friendship/acknowledgement relies on the internet to work, I can also sure as hell block you out with the internet if neither of us are really important to each other anyways.

So to all who is eventually reading this on facebook, if there ever comes a point in time that I delete you, it’s not you it’s me. I have just decided to exercise my right to not be tolerant of stupid behaviours, or we don’t even communicate much to register much on the friends radar :)

Besides that, some of you were friends since primary/secondary/institute/university times. Not everyone is going to get along, and definitely I was never a popular one either. I would like to think we have all matured over time and life experiences, but it might not necessarily be so. Even then, I hope we can give constructive criticism to each other should we ever communicate, and not just feel a random need to be noticed. All I can offer is Civility, and hope that you can offer that too. :)

Now on track with a bunch of other things that I feel a need to mention since obviously some people felt a need to bring up:

I have been in Australia since 2003. I have had more ups and downs in the last 6 years than I really had in my 21 years in Singapore. I understood more, I experienced more, I have lost friends, I have had alot of tears, and then I gain friends and families. I have experienced deaths that paralysed me, I have had experiences where I teared for being useless, and then made full use of my escapism skills to runaway from my problems.

In essence, Singapore was a testing ground and Australia is when I eventually grew up and grew into my own. THIS is home. Therefore, if I leave now, and let them make me leave, I will be losing everything that I have known and grew familiar with. Sure, I still have friends back in Singapore. But, I have more friends here than in Singapore. I have more “family” here. So, I can not go quietly into the night, without a fight.

I will not deny that I have fucked up royally though, and if there is a need to, then I will head back for 3 years, get my R.Ns, and come straight back. Because, I will be damn if anything gets me away from my home and my “babies”.

Is there a way to fix this now? definitely. I just need a shitload of money I don’t know where it is going to come from short of stripping and making a porno. or something along those lines. somewhere to the tune of 4400 to start with.

Yes, it’s a “start”.

So where did things go wrong?
1) not enough evidence of relationship
2) I had a nonchalent case officer who is, more often than not, MIA and hard to reach
3) Withdrawal of a testimonial that was one of the first/strongest testimonial of our relationship

How to fix it? So far only a few ideas:
1) Marriage (straight off into another visa, buh bye)
2) Appeals ($1400)
3) run off into the mountains and hide
4) ministerial appeal (quite far fetch and hard but)
5) Migration Agent ($3000, thus the 4400 theory)
6) Marry a kangaroo.

notice how just about any of the above options need money though. how?!?! /wrist.

ok, to be continued.

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A string of movies…

A string of movies…

Apparently I am now sick enough to have 3 days off work. I don’t really feel it, but it’s infectious so I ain’t bringing it to work with me.

For the last couple of weeks, I have been tirelessly going through a pile of movies. Just because, you know, I didn’t quite have the chance before to do so. I never knew movie marathons can be quite so tiring (and effectively ruining the “tirelessly” bit). This is what I watched:

1) Feel the Noise

one word: Sucked. The trailer looked awesome, it sounded hot and it looked like it was going to be hot. However, it appears the trailer was more exciting than the whole movie. the plot is, at best, flimsy. The storyline and the dialogues was so lame, the music offered was good at the start. then they repeated the same song literally, what, 10 times throughout the movie.

The dance, which was what drew me to the movie at first, was clubbin’ level, so nothing great about it other than a nice hot ass to look at. and even that was mostly hidden after the first 5 mins of seeing it. This is from a character who claims she wants to go to america to learn dancing! Better dancing was offered by the extras, but lasted all of 2 minutes of screen time.

2/10: 1 point for the good start, 1 point for the nice ass viewage.

2) Bourne Trilogy:

I am pretty sure that I have seen the first movie and bits and pieces of the last movie. For the life of me, however, I could recall nothing about those movies until I re-watched the both, plus the one in the middle. They were good value, however, and I loved them all. The fight scenes were beautifully execeuted and I wished I could fight like that.

oh, not to mention Matt Damon is hot hot hot, especially when he starts spewing German. I could eat those lips.

9/10

3) Make it Happen

Another dance related movie… and I actually bought this because I thought why the hell not. Burlesque dancing was stated in the summary, and yeah… maybe I am into burlesque hrrmmm…

I am a little confused about this show, as in how I feel about it. I love some of the dance scenes, particularly the last one and a couple of the “burlesque” ones.

What annoyed me were some of the finer details, like how she was the only street-ish dancer in the audition room scene, and everyone else was a ballet dancer. And while I am not well verse with burlesque dancing, I am pretty sure what they did in the movie doesn’t come close to burlesque.

The acting and script was also quite flawed in my opinion, sans that of the main actress. But one person can’t save the entire cast, so yeah….

4/10

4) Pitch Black and Chronicles of Riddick

Watched both of this, and one cannot be talked about without the other. Essentially about an escape convict and how he… really isn’t a bad person. hahaha…

Fight scenes were beautifully execeuted as well, and Vin Diesel & Alexa Davalos are both extremely hot. Him putting knee between her legs to lift her up was hot too!!! Storyline is awesome, to me anyways. I like the idea of aliens, cross-universe transportation/living/etc… it appeals to me much like star wars et al ever did.

Again, I watched part of Chronicles of Riddick somewhere, possibly during an exam period when i walked past the TV on occassions but didn’t stop to think or watch and the familiarity of it brought on more love.

8/10

5) State of Play

This is probably the first political thriller I have ever watched. Or at least, went to watch knowing that it is a political/journo thriller. The thing I utterly ruined for myself was knowing the twist at the end of the movie, thanks to Wikipedia, as I was terrified to death it would involve some scenes that would scar my brains.

Without knowing the twist, however, this is an extremely clever movie. It highlighted the possibilities of corruption in the real world, the workings of journalists and how much of an ass it can be to work as a journalist. It confronted the problems current journalists are facing (with the advent and rage of “citizen journalism”), as well as facing the realities of other aspects of a political/journalistical life. of course, some of it has been stretched and dragged around a little, it being a movie and all – doesn’t make it less of an interesting watch.

And the twist is still really clever, as well as the acting and filmography – makes me want to move to america and be a journo there hahahaha.

9/10

6) Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen

Transformers was a big part of my childhood, even though I may not remember much of the series now. All I do remember is how much I loved optimus prime and the little casette tape bot thing. Watching Transformers movie was nothing more than admiring my childhood loves, and now I am watching it because it is Transformers.

and also to remind myself I have yet to capture the thief who stole my Transformers pencil box when I was in my first grade.

the danger with making sequels is, you often have to live up to the hype. I wouldn’t say that Transformers 2 didn’t quite live up to the hype, but it certainly wasn’t quite what I expected. The characters weren’t developing much and something about the storyline seems just a little off to me.

I did love the machine vs machine fight scenes though, and I absolutely adored the twins, Skids and Mudflaps and their mad chattering (and the voices were awesome too!). Megan Fox is still hot, and there was too little of her to be seen in the movie, i think :p

There was just something missing in the movie, but, and I can’t put my finger on it. more dialogue maybe? less fast tracking of the main storylines maybe? Seeing Megatron all submissive to the Fallen? perhaps. It did give me one thing though – finally understanding where the hell Optimus got his wings from ahhaha

8/10

7) Batman: The Dark Knight

When the movie was first released, I didn’t want to see it because there was just too much hype over it. “Heath Ledger’s last film” or “Talent that was ignored” or blah blah blah. The thing about newspapers is, they only really cared that much about you if 1) you have fucked up or 2) if you’re dead. Michael Jackson’s life was an epitome of all that, with absolute crashing hypocritism. I mean, they HATED him and dragged it out about how he’s a paedophile, even after his acquittal. then suddenly, there was a massive mourning and feeling of loss when he died.

Face it, you guys still think he jerks off to little boys.

but, back to the movie.

Heath Ledger or not, Joker as a character was brilliantly performed. His fucked-up personality completely screwed with my head, and I loved it. Of course, the others were brilliant too, but the Joker’s personality can be hard to capture I had think, and hard for someone to let it shine through. So, acting and script-wise, it was all an ace.

Besides that, Harvey Dent was brilliantly played out too. The flawed good person. aaahhh

10/10

Ok, I am getting tired now. toodles!

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Arrogance

Arrogance

About 2 years or so ago, there was a new recruit in the restaurant. after having her around for a couple of weeks, we had to fire her as she was too slow – mentally, physically and socially unable to pick things up. It was a pity for her, but not a big deal for us.

Now… I met her here. She rushed through the personal carer course in a space of 4 months, with no practical experience whatsoever, and applied for the job here. The bosses all knew that, provided her with the usual basic training all staffs have to go through in a space of a week and threw her into the deep end with us trainees as all that seperated her from us was her lack of practical training.

The thing is, she’s decided that because she has certification, she is ABOVE us. Like how she behaved at the restaurant though, she tried to tell everyone including people who are genuinely ranked above her, how to do their jobs.

and it is really starting to SHIT me to tears.

she’s been here for about a month or so now, and she barely knew the residents still. yet, she tried to teach me how to “lure” a particular resident back to his room. I know how to because… abovesaid resident happened to be the very first resident we’ve met and learnt about way back 2 and a half months ago. she does dangerous things and refused to do it otherwise because… apparently she KNOWS how to do it!

but what was absolutely jarring about her behaviour and expectancy?

we sat in the nurse’s lounge and i was looking at her mobile phone, trying to think of how to fix it, it being the same as my pink gemmed nokia. I casually mentioned that i collect mobile phones and have quite a few at home if i need to swop around the spare parts or just to compare so i could put it back in.

“oh, can you give me one phone then? since you have so many.”

wow. who the fuck do you think you are?

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