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What have I been up to?

What have I been up to?

zomg, 3 weeks of no blogging? Like I said though, life is very very not so interesting. well from certain angles anyways. :D here’s what I have been doing to occupy my time though:

Aion is coming up :D well, I joined the rat race to pre-order it real late. previous purchases have all quite a huge let down. everyone’s all split up again, i am going to go by vote who, and how many whos are there on each server.

Farmville @ Facebook. eh, why not. nothing much else interests me. and wow kinda no longer does it for me. it is all fun and all still, but doing the same shit every week, every day, having the same problems with people and the game every single day… it wore out.

and real life is more interesting :p

Ah, Mafia wars. much like me playing mob wars on myspace, whilst i can barely defend myself, i go on a griefing trip. I know, it’s terrible to do that, and especially if the poor victim can’t swear their heads off on your profile. but oh god, it’s fun to hear their cries.

Of course, I usually pick on the… annoying ones. who the hell would name their… gangster alter ego “cuppycakes”?!?! it’s such a cry for attention /throw knives!!

floriade 2009

oh and flowers <3

I know I don’t communicate much elsewhere anymore but facebook. I think what I was trying to achieve, and ended up not doing so well, was to avoid having someone run through my things. I don’t have qualms about people chancing upon my diary entries, photos, twitter, what gives you. What I didn’t like was a possibility of someone USING MY OWN COMPUTER to log into all those accounts, reading through private conversations, photographs, emails and etc.

That is just not on.

The worse thing is, sometimes, people draw stupid conclusions with such intrusion, without so much as asking me the vitals (where what why who and how). Assumptions doesn’t just mean rumours, it’s also what you make of things that is infront of you.

so nowadays, I log out of things, i wipe my entire history and no longer save passwords. for someone with multiple networking accounts and incredulous amount of (differing) passwords, that meant that some passwords are lost, and some websites are forgotten. To all those who care, my apologies. I have passworded my laptop ever since, but I still need to carry this around with me every now and then, and I can’t be sure that my privacy and others can be intact.

In the long run, I guess this is in everyone’s best interest. :)

Besides all that, I have just been a real boring worker :) ENJOY!~ more photos soon :D

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Sometimes, it does take two

Sometimes, it does take two

By now, death is certainly something I should get accustomed to. After all, everyone ends on the same note. How everyone ends though, is quite something else altogether. It still makes me sad, makes me worried or makes me wish for something else entirely different on that spectrum.

When people come into homes, and they still have their partners, they sometimes move in together with their partners. This depend on how well they can look after themselves, for the most part. Most that do move in together have some sort of dependency on having others around them.

In room 27, there was this very beautiful couple. Whenever the wife needed something, the husband had get up and totter over to the nursing station to ask us for that favour. Similarly, she had watch over him during the times when he was too ill to talk to us, such as telling us what he could possibly like to wear.

Both of them have their own medical problems, of which the woman exhibited more of it physically speaking. It was painful to see her being in so much pain sometimes, even from just turning her on to her side – something I know I took for granted on a daily basis as I tunnel and funnel in my blankets. She could barely explain her pain to us as both her partner and her speaks mostly portuguese, and she slips in and out of confusion on a daily basis.

About 2 weeks ago, the husband ended up in hospital due to a fractured hip. This is not uncommon in the elderly, especially those with mobility problems. What became a problem was how she slipped further after he was gone into the hospital. As it was, her health was going downhill, but with him gone, it became worse. A week after he left for the hospital, they had to use a machine to drain the mucous from her lungs.

“she isn’t going to be long now,” the supervising nurse said to me.

I kind of groped around my bag for the book of prayers I have been carrying with me ever since the last death. and then, I stopped. I sauntered over to her room, and gently wiped her clammy face. “hang on for a little while longer, Rose, just hang on. Let Bill see you for one last time before you go.” I begged her quietly. It technically has nothing to do with me, how much she can hold on or whether he sees her or not. I just put myself in their shoes, and I think if it was my baby on that bed, I don’t want to not be with her for the last time.

Neither did I know when he would even be able to make it back too.

Regardless of what I asked of her, I decided to make up a prayer for her anyways and kissed her forehead.

She died 8 hours later, in the wee hours of the morning. and he, after hearing the news from their children, another 4 days later.

In a very dark way, it was all for the best. By all accounts, they were very close and devoted to each other. That one should live without the other felt like a needless cruelty. In their living, they have crossed many bridges of problems, solutions, happiness and bitterness – it is only right that they should depart in togetherness – the way a relationship should work.

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*crawls*

*crawls*

I have been sick, and moaning about being sick. So, let me moan some more hahaha…

Firstly, I would like to say I suck terribly about updating anything about my life. I mean, nothing sucks hard anymore, and there are very few dramas that is worth noting. Everything’s going so smoothly, sans the stupid stupid immigration shit, that I can hardly believe it myself.

It’s been 3 months since I joined personal care!!! and it’s been an amazing 3 months. of course, there are your usual work’s up and downs – but which work does not have that? Therefore… nothing worth noting really. So, what shall I do?

Finding a life

So I realised I haven’t had much life since 2005-ish until the last.. what, 2.5 months. even then, while I did find some, it’s barely touching *IT*. So, finding a life.. hrm.. where do I start? I guess I can document it with… going out and taking pictures ^_^v

Ooo NASA deep space communication thing

Like how I went to the NASA Deep Space Communication 2 sundays ago. I didn’t take one of the war memorial though, even though I did go there over the sunday past. WOULD YOU BELIEVE I HAVEN’T BEEN TO THE WAR MEMORIAL SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE IN 2003?!?! (so sua ku one…)

anyways, these were things and places that I wanted to do or go visit since I came. I guess it’s kind of interesting how things have panned out and I am actually seeing/doing them now. At some point in time, a sky dive is planned too – stay tune to see how I kick the ass of the person infront because I lost my balls mid-air.

Cooking up a storm

eh.. I realised I am quite pathetic. For a while, I actually thought I got my cooking down pat. Then I moved in with waife and I stopped – coz I got lazy and relied on the chef. The bad part is, the chef does not necessarily wants to cook at home, aye. Does it sound stupid that we ended up eating takeaways and complain, sometimes, of how bad they are?

yes yes, it does. Therefore, I am re-learning cooking. I have got a zillion cookbooks at home, better start making use of them yo… Not that I didn’t do any throughout the time with Waife. It is just too sporadic to be considered anything of value.

I will admit the last cupcakes took me 4 hours to even start baking them though *ahem* But here’s an idea of what I did a couple of weeks ago:

Pineapple fried rice ^_^
Pineapple fried rice attempt #1 was a little too bland but followed recipe strictly.

Currently, I was thinking of going through the Jamie Oliver Ministry of Food book. But the Italian cookbook also sounds tempting (not to mention heavy as!!!). I guess I can mix and match.. I do need help with some recipes though. Anyone has any idea on those Chinese New Year’s Pineapple Tarts? T_T they are ssooo good but I can never seem to re-create the same sweetness and crumbly cookie base ~.~

The Piano

I have up trying to learn the Violin. Can’t seem to find a decent teacher, not to mention i think my fingers suck at messing around with the strings. I tried my hands at the guitar too and for some reason it irritates me.

Then I grabbed the piano at work, and I realised I missed it horribly T_T. have been downloading scores and secretly practising at night during my breaks. I am incredibly rusty, I will give it that. will push on and record it at some stage. Working on Canon in D, full version I guess….

Ok enough useless rambling. Will give a more coherent update at some point.

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