le tired!!
so much to be done, so little time! I took some time out to bake myself cupcakes yesterday - sadly i didn’t even have the time to finish eating them. i did upload some of the pictures of it on to flickr, but i think the pictures really suck due to the bad lighting. will wait till morning.
Meanwhile, waife’s going to get warhammer tomorrow. he was playing beta, and I had a go. it really doesn’t look too bad at the moment, but considering the price of it all and how badly bitten I have been by age of conan, i am not too keen on playing a new game until i KNOW it has some form of reliable service somewhere.
I mean, people might think Lineage II was an expensive mistake - it did only cost me all of 60 dollars though. where else i had already blown 110 on age of conan, and even if i reactivate now, the gift items are gone (far as i know, you can’t deactivate or you will lose them). Warhammer costs about 150 bucks.
On the pr application front, I am now in need of the money to pay for it. I am not sure which direction i want to go - withdraw out all my cpf (superannuation from singapore) which takes 4 weeks i think? or save for 8 weeks. either way, they will take forever and a day to come in, and i hate waiting and waiting.
I have to arrange for a health check next week or the week after. hopefully next week, so i can really get the papers rolling end of next week yay. they require my blood platelets, or something, but i am not quite sure what for.
Aight, time to bounce!
bouncyTwitter Updates for 2008-09-18
- listening to Fort Minor; getting ready for work; cleaned up the house somewhat haha #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-15
- too much papers 2 pore ovr 4 studies & migration; unshakeable need 2 bling all my stuff; reading news again #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-13
- preparing applications for permanent residency. woah. overwhelming #
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racism rears an ugly head
Malaysian official made some racist remarks, will be punished
“I urge the Chinese not to become like the Jewish in America, where it is not enough that they control the economy, but they also want to dominate politics,” Ahmad told a news conference late Monday in northern Penang state.
“Consider this a warning from the Malays,” Ahmad said. “The patience of the Malays has a limit. Do not push us against the wall, for we will be forced to turn back and push the Chinese for our own survival.”
Malaysia’s rich cultural and racial history reveals that not only Indians and Chinese were migrants to the country, but also that the Islamic faith was something that started into the country around the 11th century. Prior to that there were already the existence of Buddhism and Hinduism, two religions that obviously derived from China and India, respectively.
Malaysia’s history was ultimately quite intertwined with her neighbors: Singapore and Indonesia. With Malacca a part of the Portuguese at some point in history, the English ultimately took over and only ended the colonial times somewhere after World War II.
In essence, most of the current population are descendants of MIGRANTS. Considering the legalities of migration laws in Malaysia or within the region during the 5th to the 20th century (pretty much non-existent), One could hardly consider anyone an illegal immigrant or a squatter. Living conditions were poor back then, so it was similar through out anywhere that anyone lived, unless you were one of the subjects of the various “Empires”, most people start out and stay at being “coolies” or “squatters”.
I mean, even nowadays, there are still housing conditions out there in Malaysia that looks like technology missed them entirely.
To make such an irresponsible and uneducated comments like the above, I had hardly think that had come from a “modern” politician - but it did. If he had a look around the region as well as global politics at all, he would have realized people seek to overthrow/win elections because 1) they believe they can do a better job at governing or 2) they are not happy with the current conditions of governance or 3) because the current government is corrupted (and yes, all three pointers can be related to one another).
Using the racial card in such a irresponsible way has not only pointed out how out of touch he is with the local community, but how he is unwilling to change, learn from his mistakes or learn to be a better person. he has NO place in the government right now or in the future.
I mean, the global community isn’t blind or stupid. Read the AP article. People know the government has always played the racial card, offering benefits to Malays and less so to the other races. The local government is hardly qualified to rule, and at times present the worst judgment even a non-politician should not have made.
With their “protective” governance though, from my relatives’ perspective, they have inculcated generations that are now dependent on benefits: Jobs, scholarships, ranks and businesses that they hardly have to work for.
It’s time for a change, I say. Racism has no place in the modern society. People need to learn to earn their keep, and look out for everyone at the same time.
Twitter Updates for 2008-09-09
- uploading pictures of meow & bunny; experienced my worst dinner out ever tonight - so embarassed #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-07
- father’s day. so not looking forward 2 work. it’s going to be a big shit fight #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-06
- chatting with friends, lounging around, reading news online. best way 2 save paper! #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-03
- insomnia, can’t sleep. been playing games, muscles near the heart is hurting. worried #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-03
- insomnia, can’t sleep. been playing games, muscles near the heart is hurting. worried #
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Atta boy!
just a little bit of a heads-up for everyone, I have lost my phone. In fact, I’ve lost it for about a week now. I didn’t notice it earlier because I rarely use it nowadays, and the battery was very flat. I just assumed it was in my bag. Thinking back about it, there’s only 2 possibilities: I’ve dropped it in the cab or have left it in Woolies Dickson. Personally, the greatest loss of it all is the fact that the phone book is an accumulation of all my friends’ contact details from the last 8 years. Yes, I’ve never really lost my phone before, so I am utterly bewildered now.
In a few days, I might consider grabbing a new phone. In the mean time, any urgent contact will have to be done through emails or work - and most of you know where i work ^^
Europeans can suck our gas! - While the topic is serious, can I just point out just how WRONG the title of the news article is?
Research shows that obese people to be blamed for global warming acceleration - Personally, I lol-ed. Although I can see why people are convinced behind the research, I had rather point out that everyday habits of many people, including “old-school” people, contributes much more to global warming than being fat and heavy really would.
Bare breasted virgins dances before the King - Political issues aside (stupid flamboyant polygamous over-spending monarch), this article is lovingly dedicated to Izzy nii-sama. but back to more serious issues
Fast food giants might get a foot into school Canteens - When I first heard about the canteens in Australia, I was just a little.. shock. I haven’t been to anyone yet, by the way, but from local food suppliers and my subordinates, I hear they have some of the most… “disgusting” stuff.
Sandwich, pasties, pies… all unhealthy food choices as far as I was concerned. Don’t get me wrong, I am no healthy food lover myself. Growing up with a nice canteen at school though, it just utterly baffles me how school canteen can be the grounds for unhealthy choice of food. I mean, our schools weren’t all that great ourselves, but at least it’s not a constant roll of pastry, oil, fatty meat minces/meat choices and so on.
Now Maccas, Krispy Kreme and Cadbury are going to provide food? Aside from possible commercial foot in (c’mon, stop being delusional, kids will want maccas for lunch and dinner too after that), there’s the health factor entirely out of the window. Jokes aside, I have seen Maccas food lately, due in part to their current Star Wars promotion.
The filet-o-fish were either obviously over cooked, with only some tartare and cheese, or entirely dripping with oil and no cheese. The McChicken faired only slightly better: at least it was constantly without lettuce. What you saw on their signboards? that’s the best you can get from them. The reality is far beyond stark.
So please, grab a hold of yourselves, start a Parents’ Association and do a Parents’ run canteen. I have seen them do so much better than pasties and pies, and infinitely better than Maccas.
yeah, I am not in the mood for serious discussion today. I am kind of toilet bound. Something I ate i guess hah
sickTwitter Updates for 2008-09-02
- damn i hurt my stomach bad; been sleeping most of today other than when i went for class - this ain’t lookin’ so good now. think i’m sick #
- have lost my phone since last monday. Have also got no hopes of retrieving it. Will consider a new phone soon #
- http://tinyurl.com/58suup if this passes, it would b gr8 news 4 many mothers who r juggling careers & want 2 b a part of their kid’s lives #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-09-01
- eating macdonald’s so i can have princess leia; desperately looking 4 the yoda plushie #
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/snerk
Dear Yvette: yeah, i love this design too! I wished I can more similar stuff like this.
A summary of this week’s constant stress providers:
Dear Customers, your threats really don’t faze me. They just annoy the shit out of me. First, one of you threaten to call HQ, then, another one group of you threaten to call my boss and tell lies. Tonight, I have one insisting he’s a food critic and going to publish in the Canberra Times tomorrow how we wouldn’t give you 2 free meals (out of 6) because the corn tasted funny.
We are not stupid. I am definitely not stupid. Only 1 person decided to complain, of the whole table, that his corn tasted weird. Of the whole restaurant, only 1 person ever did complain. Just because you suddenly decided that TWO people have got shitty corn, it doesn’t mean you get free meals. ok?
- the one bitch y’all hate.
Dear School,
I am not about to give up without a fight. You bitches have got something coming so hard and fast, you won’t realise it until it’s way over.
- The one bitch you decided to be nasty to.
Dear Myspace Mobsters,
you guys give me about as much stress as an ant does. I am seriously not bothered, and because it’s a bashing game, I WILL bash you up if I wish.
- the turtle
Dear Fellow work bitches,
Y’all need to grow up. Period. I do too, but I think at least I “man up” to my fuck ups. I am tired of all your incessant lies, and “hero stories” about why you’re late (OH I SAVED A DOG FROM BEING KNOCKED OVER). y’all have rice-size balls, it’s never going to happen.
and oh, if i hear one more “she/he fucked up my table’s orders”, you’re fired. it’s one thing to lie about your fuck-ups, and quite another to rub it on to others.
- DA BITCH.
WOOHOO, END OF THE WEEK!
chipperTwitter Updates for 2008-08-31
- has numb legs; drinking vanilla coke & eating McChicken; desperately needing roti prata #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-08-30
- annoyed, frustrated, pissed off - just another night at work. #
- had a cuppa, mentally & physically tired: BED HERE I COME! #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-08-28
- hungry, tired, full of thoughts, about to eat the cat… #
- http://tinyurl.com/ku4f4 should have prevented http://tinyurl.com/62krj4 from happening #
- http://tinyurl.com/56bbsh going through more news now - so being good is bad? #
- marinaded some chicken 2 make satay; fed animals & self; showered & dressed: time 4 work #
- finished work early. got some chicken and corn soup, half a steak sandwich. wonder y i prepared chicken satay lol #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-08-26
- http://tinyurl.com/5k97ar - this is screwed up #
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Twitter Updates for 2008-08-25
- woke up to kitty kisses, best thing ever
still need to clean room & kill da bed # - wonderfully happy with myself for my “ability” to clean up some loose html/php on my blog #
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not proud of, proud of
I am sorry for the lack of updates. I have been so caught up with school and work (both of which are going into the overdrive this semester), that i am either sleeping 16 hours at a go when i can now, or i am just too fluffed out to be able to think.
School’s fine, other than obviously being hard. Techies drove me nuts, because they insisted that IT subjects are not “definitely” online. Pray, tell, then is it right to teach kids about computers with paper and pen? That one bit stressed me out for about a week and a half as most of my online assessment was about to be “late”, without me even having a look at it.
Work though, provided the worst stress factor. Don’t get me wrong, I am not so immature and disillusioned to think that work, no matter what type it is, will provide zero stress or zero form of work politics. I have worked long enough to know that even if I pose no form of threat (aka this will never be my career) whatsoever, and even if i am a casual worker, everyone and anyone can possibly have their knives out for me.
I think, on a very personal level, I have got comfortable with working where I am right now. I have often, albeit sometimes in the worst possible way, tried to provide the best help I can to people working there. I do get irritated, and I do make alot of mistakes and have about as much tact as a rock most times. I am, after all, a fallible human. In all that I have ever done though, I have never thought that people would choose to deliberately make me look bad - mostly because I have let my guard down?
We all sat down to have a chat - or rather, i should call it a pep talk by the big boy. One of the few things he’s brought up, was the fact that all 3 people that were “new” to the current management team, previously left under undesirable conditions. And I stuck by them, through all the good and bad times. Of course, then I felt both like an idiot and being all exhilarated.
I mean, all the times I have mentioned I am quitting here, and eventually did quit and then returned, I felt like I haven’t grown or done much about my professional life - such as attempting to acquire new skills, look for internship and so on. Yet, the knowledge that I have loyalty to a business, I felt like I have stepped in my father’s shoes and learnt how to live and fight in a place that I enjoy working in.
Obviously, I am far from fulfilling my dad’s shoes eh, he was in HDB for 35 years.
That, I felt, was something to be proud of, especially in times like these where corporate loyalty is a scarcity, especially amongst casual workers like me.
With regards to the talk though, I highly doubt anyone of those present really took it to heart. It was barely 10 minutes later when they decided to subtly suggest someone’s been backstabbing me too - and someone with whom I have worked for ages with. Considering the situation though, I had highly disregard what they say. I honestly do not have the time nor energy to invest in stupid immaturity. One’s 21, and the other’s 23. They still have a long way to go before they have worked as long as I had and experience as much.
meanwhile, meet the new addition:
Oh, and the highly anticipated meeting:
I know, I said i wasn’t ready for a new bunny, what with how Fudge died and all. But really, can you resist it when a bunny kisses your hands?
I couldn’t.
i love thee…!
it’s been a flurry of action around this house lately. what with the serve of notice, we tried to get our gears in action and started hunting down houses. with our combined annual pay, we are somewhere up in the 100k mark per annum (which btw, honestly, is slightly less than average far as i can poll in this damn city).
With that bunch of papers in my armpits, consisting of my payslips and referrals, i could easily rent a place in town for up to 450 per week, hands down. hell, considering how i am earning 3 times as much as i did 2 years ago, i can probably rent for more and still survive and scrape past.
The problem is, the rental market won’t agree. and obviously, if i was also them, i probably had disagree too. Jobs like mine aren’t permanent and have fickle players. Considering the week past, i am dead certain of that even more. So with that in mind, i faced my first denial of application today.
i was just a little bit stumped, to be honest. despite the “great” view and location, the area in question ISN’T worth 450 (what the person counter offered the landlord, versus the intended 370p/wk on the papers) a week - it’s about 15 mins away from town, and approximately 30 minutes in the morning jam. the other places though, are pretty worth it. so hopefully something calls back in the next 2 days, because i am starting to panic. and a panicky Panda bodes no good. not that i will stop viewing houses, but there are less and less properties within budget and areas we can afford, and more and more inflated rental rates for the most absurd reasons.
the house has gone from some what neat in 3 months ago, to spewed out 2 months ago, to getting into boxes. unfortunately, i am one of those stupid anal arse people who likes to mess things up so “i can see what i am doing” and this is the case right now. The other unfortunate effect is, i now no longer feel like being friends with a particular person.
the thing wasn’t about her complaining to people about how shitty my home was, it was her point being “so glad i only have 5 days left here!” and that pretty much i wasn’t giving her time alone. considering how most conversations started with her proclaiming one problem or another, and how i sat down and try and offer suggestions and solutions, i am pretty bummed by it all. So, honest to God, i really don’t see how i became so terrible to live with (which seems to be the aura emitting from those paragraphs). if we were to talk about cleanliness though, she lived with me in my previous home too - which was neat while she was there. so, it baffles me that she can’t see that she came at an extremely trying time (in terms of packing yet trying to make the place look liveable).
The day that i found that out though, i decidedly let myself zoomed into nothingness. Things got to me twice as much, and i got pretty sensitive and reading too much between lines. I finally snapped when my boss’s best friend told me that i could walk out the door if i didn’t like him being rude to me, which was twice in a space of 7 days, and so i “kindly” reminded him that he was about as respectful as a rock, and walked it.
and then i bawled like the nut that i am and called up dad.
Oh dad. my pillar of strength. It’s funny. I was walking out of work, about to tear but willing myself not to. It was a shitty day in all, and i can kind of understand why J snapped at me, “if you demand respect, you should give respect”. unfortunately, of the whole restaurant, there’s no one else i respected more than J, boss, head chef and Gracie so pardon me if i believe i have already handed out respect on a platter. In my head, all i could think of was, “geez, am i not wanted or what?” and infront of me loomed H’s work place - where i would used to go to when i need to bitch about work.
Suddenly, i felt like i couldn’t tell her anything anymore, since i might be “not giving her the down time that she needs”. I can’t “go home”, because it’s not mine. I can’t talk with my “best friend”, because she really isn’t. And since i walked out of my job, i don’t even have that income - i felt so alone. So, of the only 2 people i had in mind to talk to, neither of them were HERE for me to grab and hug.
And then i cried all the way home on a cab, because i felt so alone. the poor cabbie, i think he was totally not prepared for that.
and i called dad. and i bawled like a baby, trying to understand wtf is going on. and for all his wisdom and age, he still sound sad that i was bawling like a baby over the same thing i bawled over exactly 10 years ago - my job, my useless friends and having to move out of our then home. Ah, sometimes, time just don’t change anything.
and as for the other person i wanted to call? bless his soul, he was fast asleep way out in the U.S.A. and didn’t have to listen to my wailing rambling.
Tattoos
I have finally made up my mind. i will tattoo my ass, so i can at least say i braved it (one of those things i gotta do before i die you know), and i have found something girly enough, and yet geeky enough, to “represent” my loves in 1 picture. And, i have found it!!! and before you get smart and say “wtf, that’s a big tattoo and wtf do you want a t-shirt tattooed to your ass for!?!?” i want the damn symbol, you idiots (*stares at guild*)
And for the lazy arse people, this is the intended design, taken from the Jinx website itself.
my ass isn’t this small though, so i might make it wider and spread the wings more so it covers from ass cheek to ass cheek.
and no, tony, it’s not a damn tramp stamp. go to hell.
Now, to save up dough for it.
Things i want to achieve this week
- Cook one meal this week
- Go to the gym
- Practise violin
- buy THE cook book already
- read one of my books that ain’t my textbook
- hit level 67 on WoW on my alliance alt
- Being a REAL friend and chat with half of the people on my aim list
- Bring my rollerblades out
- Not talk about work for once AFTER work.
Doable?
utterly.
