giving a place

In the past… what, 2 months, we have been shifting furniture around to move. we have been busy at work, and when it comes to off days, all we want to do was to flop down and just sleep for the whole day and do nothing. Furthermore, meow went on an auto-see&piss mode, so i had a hard time catching up AND still be working.
Amidst all that, i had a friend who came in and asked for help as she has no place to stay after a year and so in canada - gap year if you have it. So first i did was “yeah sure”. The problem was, i haven’t seen her in as many months, and it felt awkward to have a guest AND not say anything to them. and i didn’t even charge her rent or anything
so when she came in, the house smelt from the cat’s piss, and i had boxes and furniture everywhere and things were just piling up. On top of that, i was trying to be the interested friend and ask her how her things were, holidays and all were…

and now, i found out how she’s been bitching about how smelly and messy the house is, how she’s glad to be out of here, and how i wasn’t giving her any down time.

am i supposed to feel embarassed, or sad, or just stabbed?