I’ve had enough

i am at the airport, after experiencing the worst sent off ever courtesy of my family. nevermind that i sacrificed sleep last night so that i won’t feel the muscles cramping in the tight arse economy class seats, or that i am somewhat nervous that i might have too overweight a luggage or might have forgotten something important.

no, my grudge is against my very own mother.

 now, i know i have not been back in a couple of years of more. i should be at least nicer to her. i have been. and then i have been trying. From the day i have flown back, till even just now when i was trying to stay awake and have my breakfast, she was either going on about how great our relatives’ kids were, or she had be going on about how unfilial i am, OR reminding me i have to send back money to her.

i am LEAVING MUM. i might NOT EVER come back. you might NEVER see me again. and omg, the plane might CRASH. and instead of being at least NICE and civilised to me, she was berating me about a joke my DAD started.

There’s some kind of policy in NSW where if you help to set up a plot of land, it’s pretty much yours (very simplified explanation. my dad was joking with one of my aunts about this yesterday during a chinese new year visitation, and i tried to explain the particulars of this “land owning” in Australia to my aunt. and all she was concerned about is how i should NOT tell people how i am spending my money.

hello? when was i going to buy a piece of land anyways? money drops from the sky?

Then she goes on to say i am a horrible daughter, stupid sister, total lack of intellect and exhibit NO behavioural aura of a uni student whatsoever.

Ok, since when does uni students produce some kind of different “aura”? or perhaps they are snobs, is that what she was saying?

Then she goes on to say none of the friends i have ever got to know have any class, status or money, that i am such a useless human being because of that, that i should be like her, make more RICH FRIENDS (oh shit, the poor aren’t human, maybe i should not acknowledge her coz she’s poor!) and zomg…. that chinese people are ashamed of me, which is why i don’t have chinese friends because i have stooped so low in class.

now excuse me a little. i think i have plenty of chinese friends. I do have rich friends, but considering the weirdo she is, i never like to divulge things about them to her. She always ends up asking how much they earn, the price of their homes, how many maids and cars they own. like wtf, i don’t see how any of that is her business.

but she got into the gist of it and said, “i hate all MONKEYS (caucasians). they are the worst animals on earth (and you are any better?) and you just simply have to be friends with them because no chinese wants to be near you!.”

tough luck woman, this place was built with HUMANS in mind, not useless racist crap like you

I called Yz and then i walked out on my family after saying byes to just my dad (sis was being crappy too). i felt a twinge of guilt. just prior to that, dad was trying to make me get along with my mum even if it’s just an hour before i have to go. but i guess that’s not meant to be.

she’s just INCORRIGIBLE!

 

P.S i won’t have net for a while i believe, at least not till i have found a new place to move into and then set up net there. But at least, TRUST ME, i will have better net, and i will be more available!

i love you all!!!