Birthday and moving forward

Happy birthday sheetle!! ^_^ (although i was like this HUGE financial leech today….)

i went over to her place early today, to whack her into doing her assignments. the funny part was, i am not terribly motivated to finish my own assignments myself. however, while i was at her place, i actually managed to semi complete 2 assignments. well, the draft anyways. i realised, there’s so much that i did forget from my contract law days, and there is still so much that i am actually able to retain. that fairly amused me, and suddenly i felt all the more pushed forward to do more than i am doing now.

i mean, this semester, i felt there’s a whole lot of emotional baggage holding me back. i am scared:

i am scared of not performing up to par.

i am scared of not performing well as compared to my classmates (slightly different from the idea of peers).

i am scared of not producing a good enough essay as compared to my college days.

i am scared of writing so much bullshit people hate to read what i have to say.

the funny thing is, these fears are derived from ME. aka: i don’t want to look bad. a huge part of me wants to go back to ANU, and a huge part of me wishes to be acknowledge for many things. but, i am never good enough for myself because i want so much more.

maybe that shaun person is rubbing off on me. ugh.

i think, it’s time i take back the control of things, if it’s not too late. i believe, i shall start first with my own room, for example.

anyways, with regards to assignment, i have finally focused on my research brief.

Topic: “How effective are the rehabilitative measures on paedophiles?”

in the course of my research over the past couple of weeks, i have come to find out some pretty interesting things:

there are paedophiles, as according to the psychological definition, and then there are the child molestors.

the psychological definition of a paedophile is someone who sexually desires children (simplified definition anyways). Profiling such people, these people are the least likely to expose themselves because they will not risk losing the constant contact with children just for a “fling” (if you think about it, there’s a possiblility to get caught, and as such they will lose this contact eventually). surprisingly, it doesn’t neccessitate the person to actually engage in a sexual activity.

Child molestors comes in 2 different categories: The circumstial child molestor, one who chooses to molest a child just because he felt like doing it at that point in time (and therefore non-repetitive), and the preferential child molestor, someone who chooses to molest children particularly (and therefore are probably repetitive).

with such classifications, i am focusing this research brief on to preferential child molestors - are they curable/preventable without life sentences (that are also resource draining)? and then i will look at the case of Robert Excell, the guy from Western Australia who repeatedly rape/molests children despite being jailed and supposedly underwent some psychotherapy while jailed, and then compare it with the now-defunct Wolvercote Clinic that supposedly had many successful cases of helping child molestors NOT repeat their crime.

All in all, i believe that psychotherapy might work, as a measure for repeat child offenders. but not every patient would react to the programs. it also does seem awkward to insist that a child molestor should be chucked into jail, supported by taxpayers money. so how do we send out a message that SUCH THINGS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING?

at the moment, i am still stuck on the idea of waxing their testicles with hot wax, just off the records by the way. on the records, i might just suggest castration.

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