Wadge and sadness

wadge and i had dinner at la pasa, a proper one in the restaurant’s opinion. the food isn’t all that bad, considering that it’s a watered down version of asian food and stuff. wade had ayam something something, basically tomato sauce fried chicken type stuff, one of their specials listed under curry. which is kinda weird by the way, it isn’t really a curry. not even the least spicy o.o more like sweet chicken or something.

i had the curry chicken rice, basic dish so easier to gauge the dishes.

as i said, they are pretty all right, they could do with more generous servings of curry sauce on my rice though, it was.. not enough. at least for me. you know how curry should be, all over your rice, dripping wet and what not. that was just… moist. hehe….

we had a bit of a discussion with regards to our respective half. i am still getting used to the idea of a long distance relationship, and was thus a little cut by gin’s words that

1) she doesn’t believe he exists,

2) what if he’s fucking women around behind my back or

3) he has been lying to me about himself?

then she apologised, saying that she just doesn’t trust guys.

well. i still say, “shouldn’t i be the one saying all these, gin?”

it’s not just about ed. not everything revolves around him. william ran off with my 5k leaving me in a debt yet threatens to fuck me up when i go back, since i broke up with him. eddie broke into my email account, and by the way, you probably didn’t know this.

he cybered my friend and offered to pay for her cab down to “visit” him. i am sure i needn’t elaborate on what the visit was for. obviously kim and i are no longer friends.

you know what nick said. and i ain’t guna talk about my first because… that’s some painful history that i am sure at some stage i have told you about.

between you and me, and some of my other friends, gin, it should be harder for me to trust guys since i had to physically endure it, emotionally run through it and in the end was still with nothing much more than tears. it took me some money, lotsa other pain to find my way back into the light again.

life sux. but if i don’t trust God to throw something all right my way at some point in time, then i never would find the light. it’s good to be cautious, but not overtly worried about shit like that.

we talked about forum life, because other than Densha Otoko, which many people are forcing me to watch coz it’s crazy LOL, there’s quite a bit going on in some of the forums i frequent now. in the life that i lead now, to save my money, i rarely go out.this usually ends up with me being on the net or reading some random fantasy books all the time. it’s not that bad a deal, seeing that half my friends are back home, and the other half i pick up all across the net. from counter-strike, to lineage 2 peeps. at some point in time, our interaction lands up in a forum.

the thing is, look at l2blah.com for example. there are those who didn’t care if the other side of the monitor is a person or a comp. the huge amounts of flaming, e penis wanking and what have you. there is a line though, and this line can be crossed. you never know how much paying out a person can take.

if a person starts approaching mods and shit, then perhaps it’s a hint to pull out and stop the barraging.

some forums, sadly, has inattentive mods, mods who just don’t care or don’t wanna care. of course there are some who just simply can’t get involved.

Zoticx/hamster, comes to mind. in dec, one of our long time players died due to a bad car accident. while every sent their condolences, irregardless of their differences, zoticx hopped on and started being a hoe.

wait a minute…

zoticx has always been a hoe anyways, whether the people are dead or alive. as long as they don’t know him in real life, they aren’t friends, so no need to worry about them.

nevermind about that one time. zoticx is a hoe, period, in any forum, to most people except his clannies (i have heard contradicting views from ONE SAME PERSON so i shall just /ignore).

of course, in l2, no one really cares about the mods. hell, even sanctom (YES YOU MOTHERFUCKING SHEEP HUMPER, I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG!) would just create multiple accounts or spam for 2 pages in a row and get warned/banned/suspended, wash, repeat.

the key thing is, knowing when to ignore if you are getting hit, and knowing when to stop your own flaming. do unto others what you would want them to do unto you. consequences results from your actions, so don’t start whining and pointing fingers when you have obviously started shit that went out of control.

oh… and the discussion about our l2 lives, sucks that he’s on another server and i can’t abuse him everyday >.>

my new mask!!! all the pinkness unto me!!! weee… uhm the hair cuts into the mask abit, so now i look like i am blinded by my hair.

i finally got my tatts, but it also resulted in my -8 str. not that it made a hell of a difference. people still regen faster than i damage them. thanks to jake since lazy ol’ me can’t be fucked waiting for mammon just for my own tatts and also, uhm, i fucked up and bought the wrong tatts.

check out the damn clan tag man LOL… stupid mith LOL who the hell draws such a sad face LMAO.. it’s such a smoke face lmao T_T and i laughed all the way to work because of smoke’s damn sig and this damn clan tag!!!

yes, i know, my buffs viewing option is opened. i can’t live without them, i usually use them to see who’s poisoned and etc. habitual and good.i know it covers half my screen, but i am used to it now anyways feel weird if i go without them.

as for l2x, i think i am almost done with it. there’s nothing more to do there, again as i found out. i finally managed to log in, after discovering what my problem was. only to find my character stripped other than a weapon. after a few asking around, it seems that the gms’ decided to remove s grade armour from the game.

while mammon sells b grade upwards worth of gears and weapons, s grade armour aren’t buyables. someone claim they crash if they try to buy.

some good patching though, albeit, uhm, it’s a server wide underwear patch, so it’s different kind of naked as compared to our actual ncsoft idea of naked.

that WAS my dragon tooth. new name is angel slayer… hrm.. i like the wingsy part…

work tmr… and i only slept 4 hrs today.

gg.