officially aging
officially aging huh, gin?
happy birthday, my dear friend. while i am too broke to give u anything for the last 3 years (and to most of my friends too >.< ) i still remember you guys, even though i am shite at remembering birthdays. when i start earning money properly, i am just going to buy things at the beginning of the year and have some courier service remember the dates for me. simply coz i DO care, i am just shite at remembering birthdays.
i know she called me the night of her birthday, but i was just so out of it from working and so on, i was still in a state of comatose. and was going to do so till the next working day.
birthdays can be awesome, celebrations, gifts, and what have you. birthdays though, are really reminders that the world goes on, with or without you. and the time one wastes, is time that you get older doing nothing. depressing eh? yer…
i was watching some anime to pass away my off day. i don’t know why, i just suddenly wish i was back in secondary school, still young and silly, rash and emo all over. i just wanted to live it differently, and then see how life would have turn out.
would it make me any different as a person? maybe…
it still feel weird at times, like i was not in any form of transition, and suddenly i am on the brink of full time work, having to deal with the real world without any “results” in meritocratic form. no certificates indicating that you have done well in this section of life. no 9/10 for any performance that i would be doing.
on the one hand, it is scary. on the other hand, it seems like a whole new adventure. i only had a year’s worth of taste of it, and i must admit, i didn’t quite like it. now, if i do have some form of certification, would that actually be any better? looking at different blogs though, it seems like no matter how much of a certification, you would still have to face with jerks and retards in the office.
and unlike school, you can’t just wish for a different class from them next year.
officially aging.
goddamn. i hate feeling old
