Feeling down

aside from the fact that i might have to part with my ibook, nothing else is very wrong in my life.

ever since i first came, i have been trying to stay home for the most part, just to save on spending outside, because i know my parents can’t afford it. my few indulges therefore, actually lies in eating out and playing games. games of course, last for ages. my cs lasted me for about 3 years before i truly started playing the game, and even so, the fun lasted for more than a year. the same goes for l2.

food wise, i often tried to eat out after my initial year here. as i have mentioned before, food at burgie sux. there are times, when i feel that they actually deliberately made it bad so that they can save the money towards… whatever they want to do with it, rather than actually feeding us.

trying to shrug off the sadness of a possible departure with my ibook, i went off to have lunch at work today, seeing that i would be able to get it free or something along that line. the great part about eating at your work place is that you immediately feel at home. you can chat with those people like they are your family.

of course where i work, they have a long standing background of treating their customers like we are family anyways, thus the reason why we kept on going back, aside from the good food. still, it was a relief to be back at a nice “homely” place. funny though, since i have only worked there for 4 days officially.

upon arrival, i was told my tax forms were filled wrong and after my luncheon, i should go fix it up so they could pay me properly >.< i knew that was going to happen. i happily sat in my little corner though, just right after the entrance, but tuck behind the first set of stairs, so i am not easily noticeable and can enjoy my meal slowly, read slowly and drink lemon lime and bitters slowly.

they treated me like a queen, talking and chatting to me, calling me by name. treating me like a customer yet a colleague all at the same time. i feel so warm inside

if i ever get the boot from australia though, this would be what i would be missing. i was told a branch might open in singapore soon. the thing is, the F & B scene in singapore is completely different from here in australia. no matter where i go, there is always a sense of relaxation here, in the kitchen or as a customer.

in singapore, the culture dictates that the waitresses and the guests draws a firm thick line between each other. while one may be courteous, it’s a little tough to go beyond that to being warm and affable. even when i serve my customers here now, the initial reaction is often putting up the wall first.

it’s not that i meant it, but years of drilling took away that “i want and need to be close to my customers” kinda mentality from me. i still do see from their point of view… just that goddamn wall.

damn cultural shit.

not that i mind it that much, because i love the fact that i am different yet the same, but i would love that damn wall down.

anyways, turns out my afternoon manager likes to read fantasy books too… mmmm… we should start comparing our booklist. Robert Feist. i should start reading his books really, after all these years of being told to read books by him, i have no idea why i haven’t started earlier. it’s great when people have similar interests as you…

mmmm….

fantasy……

(yes i know the title is feeling down, and that’s exactly how i am feeling. 3 grand is a lot of money to be in debt with, especially when u were not expecting it.)