Highest point of the week: Seeing the letter of Offer from UC for nursing
Lowest point of the week: Knowing that I can’t afford the course for nursing.

I see myself setting myself up for failure. GG at following your parents’ footsteps baby.

Books Read: The Eye of the World by Robert Jordan
Deja Dead by Kathy Reichs

Books Currently Reading: Grave Surprise by Charlaine Harris
Shakespeare’s Landlord by Charlaine Harris

Most Frustrating Moment: Spending half my shift in tears because I was so so so pissed off about something, and then even more pissed off that I didn’t say more because I am actually doing my job…

Most significant Moment: Dad calling me to say my mum’s enrolled sister in a psd Business course, and I have decided that neither of them are “saveable”. gah.

Most… enjoyable moments: online retail therapy… BUT YET i HAVE MANAGED TO SAVE SOME CASH! i RULE! (not really, but I can pretend I rule. Still, I think it’s amazing I managed to save anything at all this week considering the stuff I am paying and the prices I am paying for them. mew?)

things to be glad about:
-I got offered a place despite no biology background (then again, they were mentioning that people with 1 degree gets some kind of advance standing or something? or just certification? me no understand)
- I got a flood of books to pick and read from. oh, and I am going to give terry pratchett another go. AND MISTBORN! AND THE THING JAKE RECOMMENDED! something something name of the wind.
- that I am still alive and people still love and adore me and protect me. <3

I have laid something of a plan. something. So, even if I can’t do nursing in uni for now (PR, citizenship would ensure I get some form of hecs later on), I should get started since I can actually get into the course without a biology background. but in comparison to those who does have some form of biological studies, I am really… not in comparison la….

Therefore, since I do have like, the 4th edition of Campbell’s Biology book somewhere, I should go look it up and start some readings going.

It’s at times like these that I am so glad that when I was young, I collect crazy amounts of totally un-school related educational books e.g: Arden Shakespeare (yes, we studied hamlet, king lear and what not. We didn’t do taming of the shrew (which for some odd reason I read), and various other non-essential readings that I plowed through), the Campbell’s biology, some neuro-surgery textbook I found lying in dust at a bookshop somewhere and etc.

And I am sure my dad was pretty broke, and wondering wtf I do with those books. But he bought them for me (maybe not so moronic after all), and I set about reading them. I found out stupid information that I never needed as an arts student, like how to calculate the amount of blood a human body has via their heigh-weight etc. It’s mad and fun to know

but perhaps this knowledge will now serve me.

hrmm….

Yes, most of this week was depressing, sad and tiring. I was probably more upset than was good and necessary for my mental health. however, there were the uplifting moments that pulled me up and gave me a hug. Yes, life is not a bed of roses, and I am glad for all the experiences I go through.