This week has been an interesting lesson in self worthiness, from a bystander’s point of view. This is not to say I am not guilty of it at times, but I feel I am humble enough to understand I am flawed and will accept changes or try to when I see a need to. It is just quite amusing what people had do to prove that they are right, they are good or they are… important in another person’s life.

see, the thing is, everyone has something to learn everyday – even at the age of 105 or what gives. you learn new culture, the 10 bajillion ways of doing the same thing and more. Learning is a endless thing, there’s too much in this world that’s happening everyday for one to learn. People forget that at times though, and think they know better than others, and their ideas are better or the other person is too stupid to know even the simplest routine in life.

it’s amusing, but irritating at times.

To start with, it is amusing how someone’s resigned because she thinks an entire workplace that has been running on well-oiled wheels is unprofessional towards her. we’re talking about a place that is accredited, with staffs that has been on for at least 12 months, and most who have been there for years. She talks condescendingly towards the management – people who will review her and pay her accordingly. and now she’s going to walk out and find a new employer within the same industry.

how scary.

then of course, there’s the annoying fly that i talked about on thursday evening.

What you eventually learn though, from a sociology point of view, is that eventually we are all just… numbers. God is very fair. Working in a dementia ward, your eyes are opened in a very very realistic point of view. There are doctors, nurses, head of banks, plumbers and mechanics…. and they all succumb into this illness, part of the 70% of those above 80 years old who succumb to dementia. some end up dribbling and unable to talk, others end up unable to even remember their first names.

There’s no better than you, or a good advice, or being more important or experienced than someone else because everyone has had different experiences in life. there’s only statistics and the ever changing world with a singular certainty – and that is death.

God is very fair.